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♡ i'm losing my grip.
Sunday, May 31, 2009, 11:39 PM
I need to say this right;-
I have wonderful friends, wonderful family, wonderful blov-vers.

Today's an another stay-home weekend. But its just got worst than yesterday.
No mum. No dad. Just me and Selena. Boo. Right. Its dead right entertaining home alone with my sister. Ohwell. Indescribable for the things I did today. Cuase obviously, I did nothing. Nothing.
I was trying out my VS sassoons iron curler and it turns out pretty much a disaster. Switched to the iron straightener. Goo, much better. So I decided to depend on the iron straightener for my hair to be done on 3rd June later for the choir treats. Heh, can't wait. A pizza treat for all of us(:
Afterwards 4th 5th and 6th June will be the Student Leadership Programme.

Fathin asked me if I had the money and opportunity, where in the earthe would I choose to visit. I told her once I've done my research I'll answer her.
Well yesterday I watched LostInLove and I guess my answer is Paris. Not because its a nationwide fashion city. Dee, when it comes to fashion, count me out. I'm not a Ms.Expert in one. They say Paris is a city of love and only a certain number of people experienced that. I really want to be those certain number of people. Of course when I grew up later. I've always dreamt to visit Paris Eiffel tower. It'll be really nice if it would come true.
Oekey. I'm out for the post today. I'm sorry for posting it a little too late today.
I love all of youuu.
And ZENA, I'll miss you too as well.
Same goes for all my pretty lovely blov-vers. heartsheartshearts.

♡ walk between those lines.
Saturday, May 30, 2009, 11:09 AM
MORNING SUNSHINEs!
Weekend here for all of us. Boo. My weekend will turn out as bore FS.
NO tuition, NO religious class. Well its not that I expect any of those two to have, but at least I could see some lovely people instead of sticking at home, looking at the same faces every single second.
I seriously have nothing to do for today and tomorrow.
Its raining already in the morninggg. Ohoh.
Kay blov-vers. I'll update later.
BYE MY B.lovers.

♡ stop shoving me to one corner and ran away, like that.
Friday, May 29, 2009, 6:08 PM
OBJECT. OF. MY. AFFECTION.♥


I should have given that thing to him today. But boo, I forgot!
I saw him but then then my blank just went into a complete blank and I forgot to gave it to him.
Stupid.pid.pid.pid.
But at the same time, I don't want him to receive it either. I find it really pathetic to start with.
Anywayy, sigh, its only after one month time that I could finally see him. Boo, and by then, this whole thing would turn out useless already. I bought it like 2, 3 days ago and now's like, wharttt.
Kay, whatever. Lets just make this invicible.
Forget as if it happens.
boobooboo.
Kay, daa people. I love you blov-vers, Sheela, Asyura.
P.S. Sheela&Asyura, congrats on being the top5. I LOVE YOU BOTH! You both did well.

♡ lets hear it for my suitehearts.
Thursday, May 28, 2009, 7:02 PM



I heart this part the most(: See it in HQ. Its dear pretty.

Right.
Lets start with today's updates.
Mum sent me early to school this morning.
I didn't went down for lunch break again.
Dismissal, Asyura decided to stay in school so as we don't know where to head to after that.
Its raining again today.
We had our late lunches back in school then we proceeded to RL. We head to our usual sitting spots after finding books. Wee heh. We ended up reading advices book by an author and counsellor Julia Tallard Johnson. Asyura read another chapter, I read the other chapter. Lol. Lame as it is, we spent an hour before finishing the whole book overall. Frankly, its the first time I, okay we, ever read that engrossed in a library, indeed a day for us.
Then, we went to McD to grab a bite since I'm craving after an hour traped in a shivering place. There were no seats available for us to seat in those McD's tables. So we ended up having our bites at the mini sitting shelter area just infront of the escalator of the NTUC leadway. I find it really ridiculous, cause it seems more that we're dating rather than eating. Big LOL. Couldn't help, but because we need a proper venue to eat, in the ultimate, we're too hungry to think about anything else. Besides, its not too bad sitting on a place where nature surrounds you. Its too serene to explain.
We talked many random stuffs. Every crunched of fries I took, we asked, answer questions. Too random questions and stuffs like "how our first real proposal will be like?"; "if you got married, you must invite me oh? *chuckles*"; "how girls look horrible when they smoke" and; "i bet what we're having now is not enough. i'm not full!"
God, I can't believe how hungry we got.
I suggested on the $2 fishballs springed sweet sour spicy sauce sold at the LerkThai.
Cheap foods taste nice and gives happiness indeed. We shared the 6 fishballs while crapping stuff again going back to the mini sitting shelter area-once again. Hhhe.
Its approaching 5 by then. We then cross paths, say our good-byes and head back home.
Today's the perfect most-est day I had with my BF.
The too perfect-to-be-my-best-friend friend. Who's always, be there for me.
I think you and I are friends. But sometimes I wonder. Would you be the one who speaks up for me if someone talks about me? You are a too popular person, that sometimes I wonder if you always like me as your bestfriend.
Boo, I get it from Ms Tallard's book.
Hah, I <3 you Asyura!
Wee, I hope this friendship'll end for eternity.
FBF(forever best friends).
I love you people.
My dear classmates and my dear family.
You're wonderful as you are. ILY is not a sentence,
its a statement, from the bottom of my heart.
Love, FINA.


♡ a connoisseur of beauty.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009, 9:34 PM
I say I'm not means I'm not.
Boo.
Doo.
Foo.
Hoo.
Please laaa. Stop being such a complimentary person oh please.
Kay kay. What -ver.
Its 40times today. hehee. lols.

Blov-vers, the day's been too fine I couldn't help being so happy.
I love everyone.
I love my classmates.
I love Asyura.
I love Sheela.
I love Sacha.
I love Mum.
I love Dad.
I love Selena.
And most importantly, I highlight this;-
ZENA. I love you three.*hugshugs*

First thing in the morning, mum, dad and selena already gives me the urge to start a bright dayy-e. I guess this month, its only the morning I had a sumptuous breakfast. Lol. I don't care about getting morning stomaches, I just love this morning.
Then headed to school.
Doodndeedoo.
Bell rang. We're dismissed.
Aimlessly hung around the school vicinity and causeway's. Went Popular and headed back home.
Simple but through all, its a very perfect fine day today, Wednesday, 27th May 2009(:
OKey DOKey.
I'm off. Bye blov-vers.

(fire + earth= lava)

P.S.:-
YouSaidIt:True love: is to have a strong rapport between each other
true love is like surely knowing that u will be with that person through thick and thin through obstacles through challenges. And at the end of the day u say to each other I LOVE YOU.

ISaidIt:I believe that true love is not overall about image.
doesnt mean that both parties are of greater appeals, they made the perfect couple.
for me true love is when one experienced racing of heartbeat, sweaty palms, the frequency urge of wanting to meet the person and when you think too much about this person. also,
fr me true love is when one believe in the other no matter in what circumstances.

♡ i'm starting all over again.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009, 7:29 PM
B.right.
I skip chinese lesson.l Again. Today.
True, I felt guilty though. But I had nothing more to keep this guilt rather than stay and keep company to my best friend. She seems down FAIC.
FAYK, its Asyura, you doubtful beings.
I shan't elaborate on that, though.
Its raining today. And this's surprise.
I started to enjoy the rainy weather once back.
It turns out that the rain seems to bring me good charm, once again.
Its a great relieved here.
Dee, you told me the rain's something to enjoy for. Finally, I realized today.
School was fine. Extremely fine that I could bore myself sleeping. Oh but I didn't. Too bad, the class too warming E|:
After school, stay back for a while due for a mini discussion on the GroupCheer. We ended up giving out cheers slip rather than 'discussing' cheer. Welleyohwells.
Was with Asyura the whole after-school time. Its a need.
Then, we headed to RegionalLibrary.
It pretty a heavy rain when we reached there. Goo, the air-conditioner in the library's giving me the head chill. EEHG.
Find a spot in level4. Badnews. Then, escalated down to level3 and find a spot near the reception counter. Soon, Syakira arrived.
Heh, instead of reading books as planned before, we end up crapping stories and gossipings. Tee, its irrestible. Thats mostly what girls, will end up doing once the time's in their within.
Afterwards, walked to causeway for a roundabouts.
I bought something for him. However, I'm not sure to give it to him or not. I did that last year, but its a something, something inedible. Fey, Idk. Lets just forgetttit.

Oeykay blov-vers. Gootta Go Now.
Love you all.

P.S.//I'm sorry. You don't have to turn around cause the world's spinning right above you. You're great. Just as you are.

♡ how do you see me through these days?
Monday, May 25, 2009, 7:23 PM
I realised that I enjoy my life much on the Mon-days.
Ask me why, idk.
Yea its fine yet lovely.
Heh.
Its due to a bunch of lovely group of people which is, nonetheless, my beloved classmates.
Tuition was horrid.
The evening was a bore.
Lunch was lengthy.
But my day is looove-r-ly.

I love everyone. Everyone I see through my days.
There's just one person I hate. That is my inner self. For being such a huss over certain puny issues I can't seem to control.
I hate this inner self of mine for being an effect-ion to the ones I love.

Okay, I'll stop being so random about this thing.
Today I played in thoughts how were if I were to die one day.
Verr-ee random then previous parags, but really, I've been doing a lot of thinking on this.
Though yes I'm still earthed, living at a very ripe young age of four-teen, nothing being left impossible yet death. Oh, Fina, shuddddee up. oije. Okay.
Bye blov-vers. I love you extra mile especially.

♡ i considered you today however,
Sunday, May 24, 2009, 3:35 PM
Picked a card and filled it with many blessful sayings
The address is written on the heart,
are you able to recieve it?
The weather is a bit cold
The wind is a bit windy
The city is peaceful yet noisy
This day I must go home alone

I ask myself if I am use to it yet
Without you, every night the echos becomes very loud
Is there a good method,
to make the lonliness be heard?

How you've been lately?
Are you still struggling in the longings?
You've said you'll remember me, do you still remember?
How you've veen lately?
Are you busy, tired, does your heart still hurt?
If you really had to forget me,
hurry up and head towards happiness

Even if we held hands, I still wouldn't have the strength to express my feelings
An ex's greeting is more awkward then a stranger's
Yesterday was far
Tomorrow is still long
The memories are vague but huge
How do I stop the late night tears from falling?

However,
if you really had to forget me,
hurry up and head towards happiness
cause thats where I'll be

♡ you can't even carve my heart out.
Saturday, May 23, 2009, 1:06 PM
giving m heart cartoon Pictures, Images and Photos

Today is Saturday. Which means Sat-uh Day.
I'm complete clueless at what to do after this.
People are out having their fun now that MidYear's over. Me. Guess just sitting in my room. Reading the storybook(s) and surfing. Its pretty pathetic now that holiday is an inch reach cause as like today, the days would ultimately come to a no end of bores.
I doubt mum and dad will allow me to go out on thee weekends. How unreasonable, I know.
Instead I have to stay at home and tutor Selena for her maths. BigSigh.
R./Vanessa Barcelos was supposed to die and Snake are in coma for that Carlos and Isabel is supposed to be together. I hate when stories have people to die. Especially the mains.
Bye blo-vers.

♡ mend that un-broken pieces yet.
Friday, May 22, 2009, 9:05 PM
Today's aye so thras-hy.
Probably the worst day.
I told you. Today would never turn out as beautiful cause I blew the charm. But you wouldn't believe.

I slept for 3hours last night, and woke up on my study desk. B-right.
And today, Selena got lecture from mum for flunking her maths test. 26, all she got. And boo, I get another blow from her. Its seriously annoying when she failed and I get a fraction of the scolding-as well. Ohwell, lets see. I got an A1 and she barely donated any words of compliments. Okay, understood, my marks aren't to her expectation, but doo, A1. I improved like heaven, a chunk. Yet no remarks. Oh oh, I guess getting an U grade was when I would probably get a heaven-great remarks from her. Blo-vers, what would you view?
Its impatiently unreasonable. Completely.
Just lets not talk about school.
I'm sick of ranting over the same issue every single day. Off topic.
After school, I headed back home. On my way back, a guy from WoodlandSec called me. Goo, I didn't go for like reasons, of course. I immediately unlocked my house gate rushed in and locked all the slots hang in there on the wall for a while and called Selena.
My call was rejected and I gave her 10 miss calls.
Only after 20minutes did she return my calls. I told her to called me when she reached our block so as to take an other alternative route. Frankly, I went really absurd and make a few phone calls to check on Selena.
Glad that she's back in one piece.
For the rest of my days, I spent in my room, napping for a few hours and woke up at around 5+ when Selena and Dad returned.
Visit the loo for umpteen of times and was seriously into No More Us For You.
Kid you not, I hate today.
And seereeyious. For the only one thing that made me happy is only No More Us For You and the class. Other than that I've been all else mourning over my aches.

Goo, okay. That'll be all. Bye blov-vers.
Hearts for everyone.

♡ no more us for you.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009, 9:42 PM
They are wonderful.
Very superflously wonderful. People.
One minute I feel insecured, the other I'm revived back to being my old self.
What's more to ask for that I wonderful people.
Okay maybe I was overseeing things a little.
However I'm trying not to make things complex.
They are just wonderful.
Okay, what. I'm thrashing off my craps.

For frank talks, I'm sure to hate this day. Today. Where I'm all standing alone at one road, like just waiting for those cars to run over me. I'm serious. Its not that I had a day of life in school.
Nothing got to do with what so ever happens in school. Its the fault of me. Yea just me. Issues. I have them. So sue me.
I've been doing a lot of thinking how I really don't want to grow. Being an immature juvenile care less ungrown kid is all the better than being a mature grownup who will and would turn out to be self-centred and taking care of others.
Its not that I'm pointing out to my parents etc etc, its just that I'm wondering for if I would grow up, well as a lady, would I turn out to become like the typical modern Singaporean society? The society who only yearn living for their self dire sake's and care not about the others?
I pray I won't.
Cause my, oh no wait, our generation's been generating way too wrong.
And my being in my unseen position, no one would bother to hear me out.
Okay, I'll shut up. Ohbviously I'm way too through deep thinking.
I just want to glance through the unpredictable future that might overwhelm some people into changing their true colors into some other they don't want to be, but somehow forced to be.
In circumstances you understand what I'm saying or not, believe me, It won't affect you anyhow.
Oh.dee.
That'll be all for today.
Bye blov-vers. Love-d.

P.S.//I've passed all my return test/exam papers. Waiting for that History paper only. Now I'm in my fear seats. Awaiting. Lol.

For a life to come together, sometimes it first has to fall completely apart. True? I don't know.

♡ purge.
Sunday, May 17, 2009, 7:04 PM




Okay fine, I'll post this one for you.
Bright. Now that MYE's officially over, my used-to-be-life returns. And thats just oh so sad.
Sigh, everyone's feeling lifted now that mid year exams are over and they could loose their self up. But not me. Not Syarafina.
It'll be more of 'come-home-straight' orders from mum and dad, no more late nights, reduction of this laptop, more of 'indoor' chores and yet more classes(ohwell, cca if you count for the wednesdays and fridays choir practice) for me to attend to. Thats not basically it. I've got more to worry for right now, which probably is re-enacting on my mind every single seconds of me, breathing.
Yet, there's nothing to be awed for as for this was my usual routine before, now and ultimately forever till I become a one independent, lady.
Ohkee, boo blov-vers. I went a short trip to the RegionalLibrary earlier and borrow, ohweellehy, 4books. Boohoo. I don't mindcare no more. Now that the need for revision is on the break, I shall post myself to bookreading habits as usual. Ohwell, lets see, there's a month or approximately so for me to finish all 4moderately-sized book. Bet on me, I finish it within this period. I'd dare.
Okay enough of my crappy says. Its evening right now.
Aigg, and my lappy is breaking down anytime right now.
Ohoh. bye!

♡ boys before flowers.
Friday, May 15, 2009, 2:43 PM

I'll be waiting for you
i no longer want you to see my painful tears
you let me know
a love like lies.
i won't give it up
because its
you
please look at me, like those stars
can you become the man in my
heart?
whenever i'm tired, lucky in my life
you came by my side like a
dream
whenever i'm sad, lucky in my dream
you always warmly surround me
no matter when,
i will always smile like this
no matter how many
trials there are in this world,
i'll definitely never let you see my tears
even if you don't understand my heart
even if you're far away,
i'll
still be happy because of your smile
can you take a step closer to me?


I had a hearty conversation with Sheela earlier. Omg,can't explain how obsessed Sheela was towards Kris Allen. Hehe. And Sheela, I don't mind listening to your hype-rantings. Really. In fact, you coloured my day with joy today. Owe to you loads. 'll promise you to watch A.I.weee hee.

B-right! Mid year's over. Finally.
Thats the statement I've been yearning to type out ever since. heh.

However, the last paper's little bit too lethal. But still an overall-average paper for Mathematics. Didn't expect this kind of standard paper to turn out to be for our Mid year.
I just hoped that everyone'll get good marks for all. But for me, history's an ultimate no hope. Owh.

Ohwell, off topic.
I'm over the craze over KoreanDrama. Dooo. Its not that the heroes were hot watsoever, Its Just Oh So Addicting. And I've been in tune with Korean songs. Fgs, Fina.
And wow oh so woo, today's like the day I've received the most IM-s. Wee heee. Its been a hefty long time I've gotten IM reoccurencingly. heh.

Ohwell, I might have to continue KoreanDrama-watching again. Daa, blov-vers.

AND SHEELA, LOVE YOU LAAAA♥

♡ almost paradise.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009, 6:03 PM
Do you hear my words? Or do you prefer foreign words?

Okay, finally, Science paper's over. And to my great suprise, doo, the paper's easy. Okay, I wouldn't say very, but hah, manageable for someone who didn't really revise. Okay, I do but yesterday was just a flip through of notes. I had the thorough revision for the past 2days, and heh, I could do the paperrr. Wee.
Right, not fully happy-yet. Mathematics tomorrow, and cuss, thats my "nightmare paper". [Pass]

B-right. Out there they're completely enjoying a sumptuos expensive meal, while me, pathetically cream biscuits thats ohsowell, apparently, cheap foods. Sighsighsigh. Thats Syarafina's fate>:

K, blov-vers.
For those studying for exams, work hard[!]Heh.
And I love you.
For the special Sheela-la♥. I love you as well(heh, I'll type this statement down for every post for you Sheela since you'd my faithfull beloved, blov-vers.)

P.S.If you're reading my blog, do get well soon yea? Get well from your infected cold. Yea, having a cold can be a great nuisance. Just bear with it oh. 5cries.29times.78points{:


♡ not for an image of your design.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009, 12:10 PM
{*SHEELA OH SHEELALALA*}
I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS AS WELL.
.oh and muacks.



Geography's paper's over. Upcoming: Science followed by Mathematics. I spent the whole night(okay considered morning as well) revising through those chunks chunks of paragraphs in the textbook and those references worksheets, and wee! all those questions came out during the paper earlier. Lol, guess what you wish me last night really do come true. Thank you for your well wishes.

Okay, I'm going to do my thorough revisions now, blov-vers.
I love you, blov-vers.


♡ thats the surreal of infatuation.
Sunday, May 10, 2009, 1:28 PM
LOL CUTE Pictures, Images and Photos

I wanted to fall in love with you, but I feared that the falling might be lethal to me.

Had religious class earlier. Then, it rains. Ohh, you don't know how much rains reminds me of those bad things that might occured today.
Bye blov-vers.

♡ an emotionally wrenching, haunting tale.
Saturday, May 9, 2009, 10:56 AM

Dear Sheela, ForYou here. Cheers for our gonna-fail History!

Blov-vers, its Saturday, and yea the weekend's started.
The day where I'm held by the temptation to stay at home, slacking whereby MYE's, a days outreached. Okayokay, I promise, study today.
You don't know how much I spent hours awake on Friday, reading through my History 'condense' notes but nothing just bypass my brain cells. I tried memorising, it didn't work. However it is, the paper's like century over and I'm ranting over an over paper. Okay, shut up, don't have to utter a word. I know I'm thrashing my vocabulary here. Ohweellleee.

And ohmygee god;
-tomorrow's mother's day.[pass]
-I'd just stood on him for my ver-e first.[pass]
-I've experienced that '2in1' thing last night-again.[pass]
-he's 75% through my heart. You know, too much discount.[pass]
and gee my god, he'll be talking to me on Tuesday.
Kay, I don't know how not to 'pass' on this. Its true fact. Considered which, now, its our 25th talked on messenger. And I completely don't know till when would we be talking upfront face to face.[pass]
Really, after all, I find it pointless talking about this.
Ohwell, I might have to continue with my Geog revision, now.
Daa blov-vers. Love-s.

♡ i tried to dislocate him for you.
Friday, May 8, 2009, 7:22 PM
Thank you. And thank you. For the you-know-who.
Thank you for your lovely letter. Thank you for your lovely poem. And just thank you for always made the best of my day.
I told you its 75%. Still. That percent left is yet for you to outreach.
Everyone was yes, right about you and him. However, I don't know a quarter of my heart still insist on waiting for the impossibility. I'm helping not to however, its difficult to.
Sometimes, I wish that you would pay more attention to my favourite songs because the lyrics they sang are the words I'm too scared to say.
And I guess you are right. I'm afraid. I am afraid to put my guard down. I am afraid that you know all that I am, you won't feel the same. And I am afraid that once my barrier is defeated, and I am comfortable, you will walk away.
I've seen gray skies turned to blue, and the way you smile when you tell me I'll get through this. However, you know how much I wish you you'd say that in face.
Maybe my heart didn't really skip a beat.
And maybe the twinkle in your eye was just the sun reflecting weird.
And maybe the feeling in my stomach was just no having enough breakfast.
And maybe then, I thought I was, I don't know-
in love?

Thursday, May 7, 2009, 8:23 PM


Solution byHillsongUnited.

♡ roll the credits.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009, 5:29 PM
Funny Quote Pictures, Images and Photos

my consequences for that you. too hard. forget me then.



I hate to remember today. Omg and I still can't believe how you still waits for me.

I don't get it why you see me as your bonnie, while I'm in true fact a clyde for you.

However much I see an effort from you, however, deep down inside, I'm just asking too much and its enough, boy.

Lets see. If how long you could hold this. If you'd do, lets just wait for me, my decision.

//P.S. Paula Deanda's my loved. Lol-ed, randomszcxz.


♡ you don't have to be virtual perfect.
Monday, May 4, 2009, 7:24 PM

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I would really love to go to Mecca and Madina again. I miss the days(weeks), we spent in there. Its just a feeling of purity and cleansity. LOL. Anyway, the song is sang by Nasheed, a Muslim group entitled My Mother.

I remember how we used to sing this song on our way there with my dearest cousins and nieces. Its a very beautiful days of our lives.
Back then, everything was very fine. I remember when mum says that we can not, by all means, to not complaint about anything when we reach there. Not even say that the weather's hot or you're feeling very warm, stuff like that cause if you do, what you complaint will really going to happen to you, big time.
For when that day that I accidentally said the weather's blazing hot, guess what the next second, the rest of my day began as which.
I also remember when a young pilgrim lady who was praying for as to have her baby born healthy as wished and the next day we got our of our hotels, she was safely pregnant. That was sigh, a significant moment I had in Arab. Back then, I was only 6/7 years old. Every morning, we woke up as early as 5am to perform our prayers in the mosque, and no one knows how I love the mosque. Its as equal as a palace. Really. Kid you not. All the ceilings and walls are reared with golden patches, such a beauty. Omg, I seriously love the mosque(!!)
And also there was one time when the boys had to go to some mini caves where the girls and ladies are not to follow. I heard from my brother that they went to this mini cave where they go inside, not wearing their clothes but were wrapped with a white cloth like those indians and they had to shave bald. God, they look like monks, but white monks(heh heh). Brother also told me that they could find droplets of pure water from the cave. A waste, the girls couldn't go.
And during one morning in Mecca or Madina, I couldn't recalled, that I had the chance to feed birds. Though its just a mere process of 'feeding birds', indeed one could sense that great satisfactory of it. There seems to be like thousands of birds flying chirping around you. Whoaa. I totally love it. Really.
I wish time would permit me to go there again with Dad this time. Oh.


♡ thy affection, leads not me.
Saturday, May 2, 2009, 8:20 PM
robots rock Pictures, Images and Photos


Even robots were in love. I don't believe we weren't. I knew, since then you never want to talk to me. I'm soorry. OOMA.(And I doubt you read this.)

You know, I told you before, everything's just too early. I told you about my best dreams. My best wishes. However, its the best you that I feared to be with. Indeed oh so yes, OOMA wasn't anything compared to you. And highlighted this to you last night. You know how it feels when one's heart was hurt. However it is, there's a scar once thats gee to load to be concealed.
He's just cuss irreplacable. Get it. I know you won't cause you want not.
I know you trying your best in trying to get me over, however, does it ever cross your mind that there's impossibility in the English vocabulary? Well, so maybe not in yours.
To the extent to give you a little light, right, you halfway through my heart. However, there's this quarter left for you to go. Right from your high view, this might seem to go on very smoothly. Those who ever did manage to come to this stage ultimately fell and gave up. Would you be the another one, or would you be the first to reach to the final stage. I don't have the answer, the key, to my heart who's unwilling to tell me what really am I looking for.
Jane told me that I'm holding back, Asyura somehow trying to convey her silent message that I'm just being too naive and would highly advised me to open up. My dear true self says so. Its my brain.
But its just-my heart.
You got to find it, somewhere unseen from where you are. Let be complicated, I don't want you to really find it. Not now. I'm not ready. In fact, I've never been. I hope you understands.

♡ and i need a hero for this.
Friday, May 1, 2009, 10:57 PM
Blov-vers, tell me what am I to do? Now?
Its obvious what he's asking for. Really. Its worst than him.
Oh. This is verrry lethal. How in the world can I agree to a one-to-one tutor??? And and and, this is the verry first time someone which is a male ask me out(alright, besides OOMA, however, that never happen. wherrd, he somehow forgot or just lied. like, ohb-viously.) Plus, now, yea now, in the midst of me blogging, he messaged me asking if I had stead-ed beforeee. Whatttt in the worlddd.
Okay, I seriously totally hate this question in the entire world. Really. Oh, another message. Stupidstupidstupiddddd.
I shouldn't have on my cuss cellphone in the first placeee. God, rescue me.
I don't care. I'm good being alone right now. God, if only OOMA is literally online.
I hate this to happen. Oh.

♡ every little piece, love.
, 5:31 PM
Great. Its finally May. And I'm great relief. Not that there's anything that I'm looking forward for.
Its just that I wanted April to end fast.
Okay, really random. Daa blov-vers.
I got to continue revising. For which I loveddd. Really. Kid you not.
Lol. Daa.