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♡ you run the risk of a few tears when you allow yourself to be tamed
Sunday, June 28, 2009, 1:01 PM
Its Sunday blov-vers! School's reopening tomorrow, the Monday.
But the bad thing is that my stomache hurt, my knee cap's almost paralyse right now-lol?-, and I'm having a superfluos bad flu. But cares who with those silly so-called obstruction, I'm going school tomorrow. Unless my temperature shoots above 37.5deg. Keppadeedoo. Daa for now. |
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♡ conceited men only ever hear praise.
Saturday, June 27, 2009, 1:40 PM
Though its barely a quarter of the day, I'm already drowned, exhausted.
Waiting for Selena is like waiting for the moon to fall. An hour. What could you possibly do in one good hour? I've been waiting like no human's place for her. Gee, guess thats what sisters do. I didn't talk much to her, cause I was in a real foul mood to be a complacent sister and beside, she will gave that cuss same old excuses. Now: waiting for my food in the microwave. 5minutes. Lol. I'm eating my lunch, and next will be down to doing nothing. My assignments are almost finished. Left with the tweeny projects details only. Awh well. Will be going to my late gram's friend wedding at night. How much I hate it, gooo gooo. Daa blov-vers. Well, I must endure the presence of two or three caterpillars if I wish to become acquainted with the butterflies. by The Rose from TheLittlePrince. |
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♡ one sting and you'll be singing as your soul ascends.
Friday, June 26, 2009, 8:24 PM
My a-quarter-open eyelids already proved that I'm yearning a sleep.
But its far too early for bedtime. Plus, mom and dad will yell at me for being sucha "proper" teenager. I don't know what am I tired of. Frankly, I didn't leave a weight more than a kilo today and have been sitting for most of the day. My fingers feel numb even typing right now. Aigoo, I guess I'll rest for a while after dinner and if I have my left charged energy, I'll probably wake up later dee. Well, then, goodnight blov-vers. Fina. |
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♡ i'm starting to trip, i'm losing my grip.
, 12:33 PM
I had a lack of hours sleep last night.
I couldn't sleep before midnight, thats really really weird cause I'm having sucha day last night and should have worn out before bedtime, but seriously not yesterday. Goo, why. Lol, the weirdest part is that I dreamt of Asyura and Sacha. I don't know what that weird dream was, but its sure to be the weirdest dream. I was awaken by Selena's knock on my door and thats when I miss the part why that dream was weird. Doo. She always cut the best of my dream. Always. Well, I'm looking forward to Mon Day. Soo looking forward. Kay, then dada all. Love to all<3 P.S. The sky's the limit. I've been acknowledge by this sentence twice. One in Tallie's Book in LeavingEden and the other one is from KeithTheMovie. And then, I started to believe, indeed it was true that the sky's the limit. Thus, there's never going to be a limit to what we do, until we are ceased away from the earth surface. Yes, I hold to that principle. |
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♡ cause I'm feeling nervous, tryin' to be so perfect, cause I know you're worth it.
Thursday, June 25, 2009, 8:29 PM
What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say Today's a perfect day to keep a persistent smile. Eh, for the very first time in my history, did my dream come true. I finally get to go out of him and he's officially the first guy who called me! Okay, I'm not over-exaggerate things here, but imagine getting your long-yearned dream come true. Okey dokey, perhaps the extravagant feeling only comes to a dovelike amateur person like me. But fine fine, as long as I'm contented thats just good enough heh. Actually, I thought Selena's presence was some kind of an impediment(not that I was thinking of anything), however, afterall, her presence save me all the those expected awkward moments(whhey, its nautural. Don't you get nervous when you're vis-à-vis to your beguin? hm well, at least I do). Haha. And the 3 of us became abnormally psyched, lol. He went off earlier and I had to stay back in RL to wait for Asyura's arrival(hah, lol) We waited for essentially half an hour and end up talking with Selena for a good half an hour. Its was a long sisterly talk I had with her. Brilliant moment to fit in with Asyura's arrival. Headed down to have lunch at McD, circuit around causeway/edit\ Everyone seems so happy that I guess we've longed forgot yesterday, but not thouroughly till Selena mentioned it. However, I tell myself I have to keep the smile today. HEHHHHH, I LOVE TODAY! P.S. Thanks for all the laughters you shared with us today. I swear I had the best, most laughter today, the three of the amiable you and the lovely you and the wonderful you. |
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♡ one's love, a list of palindrome.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009, 5:55 PM
Its raining. Boo.
The bad weathers day. I'm trying to adapt myself with the rainy weathers. With me being all alone at home, it can comes up pretty eery you know. Well, I just got to blast the radio and whoppee, I'm accompanied. Ohwell, a busy day. Dumping myself back on the study desk. God, I RD novels. Its addicted eh. I'm trying to keep my updates here so I guess I might just going to sign in and update a little. Hope this'll do. I've been singing quite a lot at home, alone lately. Seriously like seriously. Yea. Cause that way, I'd be entertaining myself. Who cares, besides the uncle who load and unload his mighty green durians up and down his truck, no one else will hear this squeaky voice of mine, true? I guess thats one of my top secrets in occupying one self boredom moments. Oh, it so helps. Ok, blov-vers, I hope you enjoy your lovely day. Love blew to all. |
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♡ stop fitting me into you, like fitting mine into that shoe.
, 2:36 AM
Alright. Enough is enough already.
That's it, me stop it. Right, just stop it. Once I started to replay and looping this dream and keep hoping it higher, it'll ultimately come crashing back on me. Hopeless. The best way to describe for the way I'm leading my life. Kay, I'm not being one complacent being here okay, but I just hope that my life could get more easier than I could ever expected rather than being someone I wished I wasn't. Stupid. And that's all along, I am, anyway. Its half past 2am and I'm still awake. Unfortunately. I really really hoped I won't have any silly dreams anymore cause all of them were a let down when you suddenly woke up and realise that you're living in this sad, oh, r-e-a-l world, all the mighty, fictional, I thought(undeterred by a few excusable things, of course). I just hoped for this once, fairytale in mine could actually came crawling into my askings. I just hope. Sigh. Well, I guess it should be time to hit the hay already since its the next day and I should reasonably turn in soon cause tomorrow, well, I may not go easy on my energy level. Tata blov-vers. P.S. Oh and I'm sorry all for the updates I've not been, well, update-?-, but I really am going on a stay away a little from blogger few days ago. Sorry. Well, but not now then. |
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♡ imy. a load lot.
Saturday, June 20, 2009, 2:20 PM
Hoorah!
I don't know why I shout an interjection but I felt today's a bliss gonna-be day. Everthing turns out perfectly fine today. Woke up at 6, rinse-up, woke up the rest then we visited gram's&grad's cemetry. Clean up the place a little offer our prayers when I started to miss gram(if you haven't realised, I've used a short form of grandmother here-easy typing) a load lot that I went silent the whole journey home. I really miss late gram. I really do(well, I couldn't possibly say I miss grad, since I never even get the chance to touch him since the very second I was earthed). Its been a good one year since she left us. |
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♡ before i walk away and blow the ending.
Thursday, June 18, 2009, 1:23 PM
Just came home from RL. Meet up with Sheela, Asyura, Illya and Tasha for the Malay project. Heh, unexplainable fun deed. Spent appr.4hours in library then head home. Now I'm drown in books. Well, so yea, here's the furthest update. Probably will update later afternoon. OKeydOKey. Daa blov-vers. |
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♡ a commendation for holy days.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 6:07 PM
I'm starting to get sick staying at home all week.
Why can't school start? Okay, at least why can't Choir start? Cuss it. I'm like seriously schoolsick. Kay, whatevv, I can't stand another 12 more days to staying at home. Goo. And I swear being me at home, I felt like I was the super glue that can be used at any circumstances. How pathetixx. Well at least I'll be meeting the group tomorrow for some malay group discussion. At the least tomorrow's schedule of being all-bored is striked out. Lucky it cause I tell myself if no one's ever going to ask me out, as in this thing, I'm seriously going to go crawling into my parents room, and beg them for money so I can spent a hung out-alone. Well, at least their permission to let me out of the house for some air. Boo, right. Kay, that'll be all for today's post. Keep with my daily updates about how a 14-year-old-gonna-be going to survive her monotonous days(<:: Blovv-ers are loved. P.S. Hey, add me to;- fina.sy-benevolence-@hotmail.com. I've creeated a new add. Bohy, long story. |
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♡ don't casanova me.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 11:48 AM
Morning blov-vers.
Well, its a no more morning now since its 12 past pm already. I swear not because I was being lazy and too irresistable to the bed smell, but I dream wonders just now. But cuss Selena to wake me up in the middle of that wonderful dream. Aouwh. I slept at 2 last night when my laptop finally broke down and I have no other choice but to sleep. I'm blasting the radio now, so I barely could understand what I'm typing. Pardon me for if languages are misused whatsoever. Anyway, I'm burning my braincells into sticking with the laptop the whole day of today cause I'mma gonna start the book-to-book revision! yay. Anywhich, I've not started goo. Heh. Mum and Dad's off to morning shift and left with me and Selena alone at home, doing our own things. Well in a moment, I'll be alone since Selena have started her weekly tuition this week. SO oh so lonely I am. But I have my books to keep my company. Kay, I'm eating noodles now. Needa break from all the typing(ehy, I've been researching on wikipedia okay). Till later, Blov-vers. <3 |
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♡ and you were a once-upon-a-time.
, 12:28 AM
A few minutes ago, I've been tossing and turning on my own single queen dying bed(which seriously needs a new buy immediately) but couldn't force myself to get a goodnight sleep. It seems to me now that sleeping is the hardest thing to do. Silly cause I used to be a heavy-sleeper.
And with no one to IM to at night, with exceptional to Sheela, I have nothing else to do now. Yea, urgent, now. My wall lamp's bulb's been glowing in the corner there, just waiting to fuse, or probably waiting for me to fuse. I couldn't enjoy the holidays any better cause I'm growing down rooted drained to nothing excepts for homework and pertaining stuffs like that. My laptop is dying at any moment, and if that moments ever come any moment sooner, I'm telling you blov-vers, I'm yet to be-alive. I swear under anyone's socks, I would love to start school anytime, but now. Eventhough its not a least logic to have a 2weeks, unexcite holy-days, school days are still much more preferable where there's at the least something for me to worry which are those inevitables CSP lessons, something(s) for me to look forward to which are choir practices(hey, no joke, I'm starting to miss those choir practices) and something for me to "dearlove" for-my wonderful wonderful classmates. Well, speaking of assignments, I'm almost done. Kay, I'm repeating that honourable few words already. Lol. Today's been the daily same. Nothing much to storytell about. Well, I guess that'll be all. Daa blov-vers. Loveeeeyouall<3 |
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♡ 'cos you're my only oxygen i'm breathing.
Friday, June 12, 2009, 10:37 PM
One thing I knew for sure. If I'd be given the chance to wish, I wish I'd never be alone. I don't know where else to continue,
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♡ just a day just an ordinary day.
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♡ bullheaded thinkers.
Thursday, June 11, 2009, 4:52 PM
Wake up this morning, sigh, hoh, the same routine to do- run errands.
Mum's out, visiting someone in some hospital. Dad's off to work in the morning. So home alone with Selena today. Nothing to do, yes. I'm practically finisihing my assignments soon. Ohwell, not all. Just research and project work to worry for, the rest are, much less, settled. So I'm out of mind what to do next. Can't possibly go out. No one's home to take care despite Selena. Besides, no one's asking me out(well, I didn't expect that anyway). I have seriously nothing to blog about. But just to keep my daily updates filled, just some content will do uh. Oh yea anyway, I couldn't sleep well last night. I don't know whyy. I mean seriously don't know why. I should have fallen asleep at 3am last night. Well here's the complete story. Note: You don't have to read the rest of this part, cause it'll content, you-know-who. Well, my contact list was left with only his name. Well, we talked, okay, whatevv, chat till morning. I told him how I couldn't sleep and he told me the same. Goo, I spent the whole night waiting for his next IM respond. And until one moment I just nudge him one. Aigoo. I thought until then did I couldn't sleep was merely because of him. VOOWEE. Yes. At last, he sent me a message at 3:49am asking if I had slept or not. I didn't replied him cause I was due snoring away already by the time. Out of period, I woke up at 5:49am(directly, 2 hours after the last message received) and saw the message. I replied him with a greeting cause couldn't in any possibility should I answer his question if I had slept or not cause I just woke up, which makes me been sleeping just now. K, what am I twisting about. Whatevv. His still online though(or not. The reason is he's online but on the "away" mode.) So I just gave him a nudge greeting and went back to sleep. Lol. Couldn't help much. Note: K. The story that you wouldn't want to read ends here. Officially(LOL). Can continue reading below. (K, WHAT. Big LOL). Kay all. It seems that I do have something to blog about. P.S. So what if I have to fall lifting a 100 kilo of heavy tons, if ultimately, you don't catch me when I fall? Love you blov-vers<3<3<3. |
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♡ all the never-ending possibilities.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009, 9:58 PM
Went RL with Sheela this morning- well since the library was opened, according to Sheela.
Lol, sharing a table with stranger was far weird. Way way weird. I swear, I wasn't focused on my homework. Oh, well, I managed to complete still some. But sure those weren't properly completed. So I'm editting some noww. Heh. Well, wouldn't elaborate much about the "incident in the library". Sheela elaborated it in her blog. Asyura messaged not long and we meet her in RL itself. Wait for those 2 "people" to come back and we head off for lunch. God, no one knows how hung-er-ree I was then. That explains my momentary silence, then. When our stomaches were filled, we crossed our paths and headed back home. Reached home and I was told that Selena was out, watching movies with her "girls", as she put it. Pretty all. P.S. I AM TRULY VERY SORRY. I know, and honestly, know that you've been reading my blog and all. I don't know this thing would have been such a blow to you. I am really sorry. You get me? You're too modest and kind to start with. Be assertive no more, please. Just pour out. I'll do all I can to heal it. Really, I will. Thanks for all. And you know I'm refering to you. |
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♡ i'm through your say.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009, 1:13 PM
I'm all left bored down here. Whats left to do but just stare at one spot and recreative your thoughts? God, I'm seriously moaning boredness I swear. Oohh. Kayyy, bye blov-versss. |
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♡ stop being such a perky person please oh please.
Sunday, June 7, 2009, 6:59 PM
I totally hate my hair. Super very. Who agrees with me, raises your both hands? I guess everyone. Boo, like seriously big time. My hair's getting frizzier each day, I swear. And the shampoo product I'm using currently is getting on my nerves. God, what am I now? A hair worrier queen?! God, I better shut up.
Okay, I can't. Seriously blov-vers. I'm seriously am going to drag mum to the salon this week for my hair. Its lethally on my nerves. Ugeegh. Had dad's corn soup and his blueberry + mango x spiked with 7ups = a fruit punch, which nonetheless tasted, okay, I'm rude to say it, fine, tasted fine. I spent the rest of my weekend starting yesterday afternoon after camp, slacking like no one's business and I'm not done yet with my tuition homework. Great. Bhoyy, you know what, I'm starting to miss my friends, my classmates. Whats life like right now without them you ask? Terrible. Super intelligently terrible): Adios blov-vers. I'm missing all of you readers too. P.S. If only time remains like now, I could see you from beyond. |
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♡ its only A.B.C of growing up.
, 2:10 PM
I was grouped with the Maximum(lol). We gather up for a group cheer et cetera. Then we had group games. Boo, its heaven fun blov-vers. The toughest exhausting one was the caterpillar lol.(I'm sorry YiYun. LOL.) We had to do double time. Buts its okay. Its a great team effort put in. Afterwards, we had a telematch. One by one, we had to do backwards skippings, spinning on a spot, dug our heads in a plate filled flour for search of colored M&M, squashing of orange juices on a cup with no help of using hands region and lastly attached to each of us with a certain metres rafia strings and run together with those attached strings back to the starting point.(long sentences, phew.) We got 2nd. Great achievement uh? Well. Then its clean and rinse time. Showered, then went to assemble back together. We played a 'Doctor' game at night. We're the last group to finish the game. God, we cheer like no one's business. Wonder not we're the last. However, winnings not too everything, its a tired yet fun experiencing game. Reflection, then lights off. Next morning, its PT and boo, I fell on the running due to leg cramps and a little nausea. Okay, shutup. I know I know. Mybad. I hate the PT the most, that I couldn't finish breakfast meal. Its dude, so much. Afterwards, had talk by Melvin and we watch StepUp2 till its lunch hour. Then we played DawnOFWar. My team was the Red. My role was initially the soldier, but then I thought my leg needed rest and exchanges role with KitYee to engineer instead. I regreted it at last, cause I'm pushed to doing nothing ultimately. Just keeping an eye on our checkpoint. Aigoo, bad decision. The Green team won, however, its a great time playing this game with the team. The night came. And I must admit this, its the scariest moment ever in the camp. Ever. Shan't elaborate much. However, glad to say, my egg's all the time safe&fine:D The next day, its more of cleaning up the whole of school area that we've used up the whole of Thursday and Friday. Afterwards, we're required to write encouragements slips to people of our choice(kay, lol.). I wanted to write to more people, however, the time given's limited): I received lovely slips from lovely people, that's just too good already. Did survey, assembled and then yay, we're off from school. Headed to McD with Sheela, Illya and Maria and met the rest. Ordered a set and ate only fries and packed the burger back home. We said our goodbyes and haiiigaey, home sweet home. Everyone's being soo nice to me, I don't know why. Bathed, hung around the house, tired, then dug myself on my bed for freaking an hour due to Selena's waking me up. And my fan's not working, fgs. What the ever it is, I miss home, and my family!!! Its good to see them for, what, two and a quarter day. Kay, everything just went well yesterdayy and I'm so blissed. And god, how I'm starting to miss everyone. Lovelove. P.S. The songs up there was SpeedingCars by ImogenHeap. Enjoy blov-vers. |
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♡ chemicals react.
Saturday, June 6, 2009, 6:28 PM
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♡ god, i swear, i still like you.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009, 8:56 PM
  I can't believe its the great feeling back once again. I am oh so just happy. In fact, I am VERYYYYYY SUPER HAPPY! He talks from A to Z eh. Its been deadly long since I had a long chat with OOMA. Yes, OOMA!! Gee, I'm so happy. You wouldn't understand the bliss I'm in unless you're me. Really its a wonderful heaven feeling. I don't care if OOMA reads this or not. But I just want to say that I AM DEAD HEAVEN HAPPY FOR TODAY! VERY VERY EXTREMELY HAPPY! God, I swear, I still like you. Who cares if OOMA himself is reading. IDC. Its wonderful talking to this guy ehhhh. Kkk, Shut Up. I will. Lord, I'm rambling too much here. Yea very. Well, cares whoo. See this one paragraph chunk, my keys aren't working anymoreee. Greatttt. Super very great. I hate this laptop, at the same time, I adores it. This laptop helds so many memories. Especially those previous convos. Kay, I'll update more on Saturday about the photo up there, our choir treat when I came back from the Student Leadership camp. GTG blov-vers. I have nappings to do. Heh. P.S. Just get well soon. And you'll be fine(: |
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♡ i pathed my own life, myself, today, alone.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009, 3:39 PM
I hate super hate this crappy lappy. I'm not complaining I need one. Okay, I am. But doo, the keys in this board(???) is not giving me in. I can't press the "enter", can't "ctrl+v". And I am practically writting this post in one whole chunk of paragraph. This sure looks lengthy. Ohwell, my laptop could last longer than 2years. I bought this machine 2years ago at the beginning of freshman year. Now, its starting to show its boo-boo. I hate it when I hate to run about silly stuffs like this. Ohhhh. Come on, I need you emergency for this vacation. You're the only entertainment, so far. Honestly, I'm breaking down too if you were to start breaking down. And I will be really dead if mum and dad knows that this laptop is faulty. Gipsy godsy please, heal fastttt. Okay what am I to do now. Assignments, I had it touched but had not it worked on yet. So big guilt. Owh, I guess I might have to try and do something today. I scroll through the Student Leadership Camp packlist and booo!, I don't have a sleeping bag. Mum had it. Okay, whatever, this is ruling my day worser. Daa blov-vers. Enjoy your lovely days, which I bet you do): Here's just a video for all of you. Fina, love. |
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♡ i'm just some girl next door.
Monday, June 1, 2009, 6:42 PM
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