Its nice to be lazying yourself under your best warm comforter in time when its raining, while reading the loveliest book ever, for the whole morning. Except that you can't be drink nor eating.
I figured that spending my always-boring weekends like this(staying in bed reading novels) all day till break fast hour, is not too bad. Just that I got to keep my maintains on the chapters.

I really love enjoying morning rainings. Its like as if you know you'd been alive all day because of the dark weathers and the feeling of being so late. Okay, its unexplainable in words. Unless you have experiences like me, you'd understand.

Well, I still have a whole list of vague plans for today. I'd skip Madrasah for some reasons I don't know why I wanted to just stay in bed. I'd call mum up telling her, in my most enticing vegilue tone, and she'd come to lose over me. Yayee, the bed's all mine for the whole of morning.

I guess I have nothing more else to say than just goodbye.
I might or might not be updating my blog again later this day.
You blov-vers might just have to keep on the right track of my updates.
Loves.

Its been the previous Tuesday ever since I've updated on my blog.

Well, genius, I slept for 3 hours straight under my cosy comforter. Gosh, and now helping out in the kitchen. No idea what left more to help, I switched on my laptop and better up update.

We had TSAD rehearsal in school which last for circa 5hours from 8 to 1.30. I was pretty lost dancing the ABC song. Honestly were. Alicia doesn't seem to be helping me with the steps either. I don't blame her, cause she was vague of knowing the steps and all. I ended up learning a few simple steps and at least, it was fine, I guess.
We had a few dry-run-ons, and by the time it was the second, my energy was all used already. Thirsty and tired, all I want was just my bed and my only bed after we were dismissed.
I was practically already dozing off on the way in the bus. Hah, lucky thing there's no waiting of bus. Orelse, with the way my energy status were, I'm so going to be sleeping-standing. Oh.
End of story. I had my sleep and now just waiting for break fast hour.

To fill up my recent updates;-
- Happy 15th (belated) Birthday, to Syafiq. (Truth is, I didn't meant to post it here, as belated, cause I have already planned to post Syafiq's birthday by at Wednesday night, but I doze of. Sorry to the person, itself.)
- Hysterically, my geography test was a major huge disappointment. Stabbing myself even felt never enough to now. I'm just going to have to work hard future tests. MM. YES. I. HAVE. TO.
- Such a bad day for such a good Friday. I know. The road seems so uneven, I want to make a life U-turn. I'm sorry for that I have never been such a person to you. But please, you don't have to make such cynical stares and cold talks with me. Its ob-vious, okay. God, forget it. Its not that everything I'll say will amend anything. I just found out a person you are&were. Good day.
- Choir is freaking-ly creating a new way of warming-up AND singing. The sitting-45degree-bent-knees-2fingers-in-not-slouching position. Oh and gracious, we're going KL for the 'International' competition. I was hoping it to be like some cool country or what. Malaysia, oh justt soo lovely. I've never set foot in that place, ever. Not. *Sarcasm Alert!*
- Yes yes yes. I was freaking out the minute(s) before I need to pass you the present. God, its my first time handing a guy, right guy, a birthday present. Furthermore, a 15-year-old guy. Okay, you may just never know. Though it looks like I never cared, I was hoping much you'd love the present. I took me one night to get everything sorted out. Nevertheless, if youhad qualms over not liking it somehow, I'm nowhere to control you. Just hoped that you'd at least receive it with optimist though (:

Okay 6:40 already. Time to head on to the kitchen, back again. Fina got to practice housework-initiative, Mum commented on me last night, or is it the previous night(?).
Okey Dokey. Till now, I'll be sending off my regards.
Love you all<3

P.S. I was only hoping a good fine reply text from you, and I swear I'll be okay already. But it turns out you did not. Sad to say.

P.S.S. Before saying my last goodbye. Here's for a girl(or a lady, I shall say since she've turned a pretty 14 teenager. Anyway,) who's always be my lady forever.
I have a friend. The loveliest friend. She is NorSheela Faheen. She's not pretty. She's not smart. She's gorgeous. A genius. Indeed. In times I always felt like falling, she'd be the one being who'll catch me and fly me back to heaven's place. As Sheela-ish as her, I salute her as one people's role model(big statement). She's the one that have been seeing the dark days with me. Through out so, I never will make her upset or so. Not an inch. She'd seen me cry. She'd first seen me cry for a guy. She's first to keep me in her warmth embrace everything I felt so cold deep inside. I share secrets with her, feeling very secure, it won't leak. She shared hers too. My heart will rattle hard everytime she's pulled with such a down bad day, and turn all repulsively moody. How I wish at that particular moment, I could give her my best warmest embrace like she would. Sometimes I felt so useless and helpless being some companion of hers. Oh, ILOVEYOU, NORSHEELA FAHEEN(don't know enough if you do).

Okay its 8:30PM on my clock.
Officially, today marks my HAPPIEST DAY OF THE YEAR(I guess).
1. I was so cuss happy when he says another 'hello' to me this morning eh.
2. School period was utterlessly lovely today, despite during my recess shift duty, which I must say practically suxcz much cause (fill in the blanks). However it is, its a great experience a mixed feeling of achievement. Whoa, I must honestly salute to Kelly, mann. She's (fill in the blank).
3. I'm happt that finally I could go mini shoppin' with Sheela, love and
4. successfully got the long-searched(like half an hour, or probably more?) presents for the Choir teachers conductress&conductor. Mugs, quoty mugs, which just cost everything 19bucks.
5. AND, AND, AND. I FINALLY GOT MY DREAM WATCH EH. FOR MY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENTS. AND GUESS WHAT, I ONLY CELEBRATED IT OFFICIALLY TODAY. YES, WITH THE BLOWING OF CANDLES AND CUTTING OF CAKES. THAT'S THE STORY OF SYARAFINA'S LIFE, SADLY. However, I was thankful to mum for that 155bucks of watch. I swear, I'll cherish it, and won't let a spat of dirt get onto it. Yes, won't. And sweet of her to get me a nice elegant white purse, which I've been yearning ever since I got a hole torn in my previous wallet.

From now onwards, I will love my mother with all I have. Honest. Yes, honest. I'll protect my mum from all evil and will do well for finals. Yes, and make her proud and make a feast over my achievements(ifs).
ILOVEYOU, mum.

Okay, 'll be all.
I'm going off to start with the revisions nooww. DAA people.
Ily toos.

P.S. Sheela, being with you make me feel whole inside. Thank you for always be around at sight whether in good or the bad times. Iloveyou. And thats forever<3

I'm all drained and tired.
I skipped tuition and spent 3hours in RL(can't find a table, but sit on the floor) revisioning, instead.
Read through some of the Geography recent-learnt chapters, a lot of vocabulary practice, at the same time, finishing my tuition homeworks. All completed in 3hours, straight.
RL, where it was supposed to be a conducive place for learning and reading, it turns out into a playground instead. I swear. The people there are mostly getting on my nerves. I felt like banging my book on the floor, hard, and shout right across the hall. Cuss irritating, you know.
Approximately near 5:30PM, I head out of RL and took the bus straight home. I couldn't bring myself to took the train. I hate the few metres walk, especially in time I was fasting.
I was just praying inside, 'just let me survive until I reach home'. At least, there's helping beings back home. Not the public.
On-lined and chatted awhile with Maria and bathed.
Now in midst of waiting to break fast.
Till soon, bye blov-vers.
To the muslims who's fasting, happy break fasting.
ILOVEYOU<3

I felt cuss so badd.
After reading your post.
I'm sorry. Thank you.
Guess that's the word after all.
Honestly, I've been ranting and ranting about it since Friday and still couldn't stop even during the Honours Day. Goo. You made me go haywire you know.
I wish that you could really, ohyouknow, make it better. I want something warm, not really a something, but just a little good little wish, would just make up for yesterday. I grr-ly swear.
Yesterday, Saturday, 22nd of August, was supposedly to be my Happy Birthday. However it turns out the opposite. Everything just ruined my day(with exceptional of the Honours Day moment and times spared with Sheela&Maria after that. Duhh of course), and instead whatt a day to celebrate my 14th birthday.
However much sad the day turns out to be, and how it flips back on me(hard), I told myself not to give myself a teardrop on "my day", but I couldn't help it. I cried right in the car when mum says those things which hurts me, big time, a lot. I know I'm helplessly being one such typical selfish individual, but isn't it mutual for a 14-year-old young lady to be picky and just a little more more than I am during her 14th Birthday?!
It just hurts when everything you hoped for long, was demolished, like a knife penetrating through your heart.
Plus minus with that, you just is one factor. But you are unconscious, sad to know.
Urgh. Whatever with my BirthDay.
Pathetic as you can say.

The Honours Day thingy went on pretty smoothly.
I couldn't believe that we turned it into a great success. Indeed.
I was asked to be with Tiffany and SiHui for prize giving, and ushering in the Theatrete and things like that. I must frankly admit that it was indeed a great great great experience(for ushering and handing the cuss heavy weighing prize trophies and all to the teachers and the GuestOfHonour) I had.
Yes, I(I mean, we) need to stand for like half an hour, in a steady "professional" posture, orelse, you get a pain neck from Mrs Kok.

-The Previous Day-
After the dismissal bell rang, had to rush to the Councillor Room for a briefing for the next day's Honours Day.
Then, left for an hour Choir rehearsal. I was SO not doing the warm-ups and all properly(sorry_) due to the fact that I was freaking so scared that Ms Grace might give me her used typical stares cause I have been consecutively skipping Friday rehearsals, where she is concerned most.
I kept checking the time, whether its 2:25PM already or not, so frequent that my notes were sung all, any how.
I was very so worried when Sheela didn't came in the Music Room after 1:30, because then I'd be the only when leaving(so awkward). When its time to go, I informed Mr Lee and headed to (I don't know actually. Forgot. Hah.) 2nd floor, and happens to find Sheela&Maria. We then head to the theathrete and almost everyone's there.

Me, Sheela and Maria helped Mdm ElenaChong to carry boxes of those prizes up to thr Theathrete from the Mrs Kok's office(eh, we got to go in the principal's office eh. hah, like nobody did. but heh, great feeling oh).

After which, we are needed to unpack those prizes. I felt so honoured getting hold each of every(well not all) of those prizes, especially those gigantic ones. WHOA.
Then, Mrs Kok came in and we started the rehearsal. It was approximately 4PM by then.
Pity Sheela and Maria, they had to re-do their speeches. Sigh, Mrs Kok.
Everything took quite some time for us to familiarize with the order of giving the prizes. Tiffany, SiHui really worked fast. Mrs Kok was doing her commenty says about this and that and we end everything by 6PM.
Me, Sheela and Maria then headed to causeway's KFC and bought a 14dollar meal, and had our fill before heading home.
I slept at 9 eh that Friday night. The earliest hour, probably I've ever slept this semester. Hah.

-The Day-
Its the first day of Ramadhan and I was, as well, excited for the Honours Day. Woke up at 3:45AM to had my sahur before the others. I didn't get to bed after that. I bathed and get dressed in my uniform, my difficult-to-handle fringe, and my overall attire.
Meet up with Sheela and Maria at Admiralty by 7:15AM and walked to school.
Reach there, place our bags in the Theathrete and wait for the teachers to come. And we started the last minute rehearsal. Everything went pretty well, indeed. Great effort from everyone, I must say.
After everything was over. It was the refreshment hour and everyone head to the hall. Of course we didn't get any bite or sip. We're fasting, duhuh.
The 3 of us was like parading around the school, with our blazzers on. Thirsty, hungry as we are, we still continue lingering around the hall. Though, I must admit there WERE pretty hot male graduants, but I wasn't just interested(SHEELA, NOTE!). Hah.
They were SO different from the picture taken last year than the person you face in face now. A major different, I meant.
After everything, we headed to RL to borrow books. Hah, like finally(I've paid my book fines. Lol. After so long.)
We(okay me) were so crazy about selecting the best 4books, since its the maximum we could borrow at this period.
Said our final goodbyes and head home.
It was a crazy dayy. And I love it, much much.
Except for the after.

Well. That'll be all.
I'm hitting the books now. Revision time.
Bye, I love you. You know you.

P.S. Special thanks to Sheela(for your one adorable Teddy), Asyura(for that prism-patts mobile holder), Rano(for the toothless bunny and a carved necklace, which I already have, anw) and Syafiq(for your wonderful well wishes on your b-post).
P.S.S. Selena finally opens up to know which guy is hot, which is not. Hah. She's soon going to have a Moon Day, I bet. Goo, but that guy was hot(care not, though).
P.S.S.S. I didn't mean that silly. But its okayy. I'm just sorry):
P.S.S.S.S. I look ugh-lee in headband. TOTALLY. VERY. SO.

This post is especially for my dearest, well missed, blov-vers, you people who's practically reading my blog, to Glonee in special, plus Sheela, Zena, who ever lovess(:

Today wass a little bit extreme for mee. For someone, like me.
First thing in the morning, I've actually somehow loose possession of my freaking art materials, and it just turns out that it was with Max the whole time I was frantically searching for it, running around the school compound, with dear Sheela. I swear worst that having to run kilometres of run.
I was crying like nobody's business when the thing was not within my sightt. I swear I was.
Ask the 2e4 ladiess. I broke down because:-
1. I owed Jane a paint.
2. I'm soo committing suicide if it went missing, cause it cost me a cuss bomb. The money I forked out and actually need to save for Syafiq)`:
3. Ms Nur will skin me dead if I didn't bring anyy of the materials, which I initially did, but its just lostt or somehow like that, but then with Ms Nur personalilty, I highly doubt she'll believed yet understands me.
4. And if things get out of control Mr Siva might be noted on this cause a councillor is suppose to set a good example, however, I did the opposite. So deadd.
***
Good thing it didn't really occured. Big phews.
I actually do enjoy art lessons. hah.
Then it was recess. I had duty today, but then, by the time I reached to my assigned level floor, the classrooms were all cleared and not a single person was around. Great relief. Thought I just had to thank Apurva for helping with the duties I've always missed, but then it turns out that she skived. heh.

After recess, everything went as per normal. Lessons were somehow what mundane, and I can't help wanting to fall asleep but I justt get my eyes to stay awake for a few more other periods before school's over.

MT end the day, literally. Had a rushing lunch with Sheela before we head to extra, Sheela's-requested choir rehearsal. ZhongHao, was being randomly randomly randoom todayy. GOO. First time I actually heard my name was pronounced, amazingly, surprisingly nice, slang in a way its good in the ears(: HAH.

Choir rehearsal was a very brief 1hour plus.
Afterwards, head home towards Admiralty with Sheela and Joelyn.
I'm freaking tired but my eyes weren't the least heavy when I reached home. However now, I wass yearning for my beddd badly.

Okay, my full update for todayy.
Love you blov-vers.

P.S. I guess you just get your best medicine. I don't have qualms over you, no more.
P.S.S. Its that one voice that held me back. I'm sorry. I miss you.

Honestly, I was cuss pissed at you for not knowing your self-faults.
This people just get a neck of me, big timee. Goshh, and pleaseee, stop being such a load in people's bagg. Cause frankly, you're honestly ARE and WERE right now.
I'm used to being such a dump, as in yes, dump, thrashh, where people just come and goo being my so-called friend. And I'm through, had enough of this tolerant nonsensical of your behaviour. Enough's enoughh. Probably you think we're okay, but truth is, WE'RE SO NOT OKAYY, okay?!
Get this straight okayy, realize yourself first before you have the cheek to realize for the others, cause I can't stand people being said, anyhoww. GOSH, REALIZEE IT.

God, a day, I would never forgettt.
Okay, I talked alot about you, seriously like todayy.
Readd me for thiss, I TALKED ABOUT YOU, understand?!
OKay, I'm so hitting the sheets soon noww. I'm cuss sleepy.

P.S. Perhaps thats one warm hello you've said to me. So close, it makes me shudder you knoww. Thank you. That, fmfg(for.my.freaking.god.), that makes the best dayy.
P.S.S. Well, actually, its Sheela, Love thats the one that makes the best of my worst day, alwayss.

GAY. I feel so GAY EH, TODAY.
Kay, what a random sentence to start.
I suppose this blog was unvisited. Duh-uh, who reads my blog except him. Gee.
This blog's so geeky plus minus the content. Kay, throwinthebin.

Friday's issue, you should have read all those updated blogs like Rasyidah's and Sheela's one.
I don't think there's any decent content to post except one thing, yes sheela yes, that photographer wass cuss mesmerizing to every core, I was freaking concentrated after he took a few of my snapshots. But that joy was temporarry. I'm no so over-crazzzy like someone. Hhah.

On Saturday, we had Community Involvement Programme thingy going on at some blocks near the 800s. Fortunately(or unfortunately, depending on how you percept everything), I worked with Matthio. My heart was heavy on the due fact that Asyura "throw" me to him, cause I can't work together with her with reasons being none of us could speak mandarin. Hence we split and pair up with KitYee, for Asyura, and Matthio, for me. Things go pretty smoothly, with the fact that Matthio's being really really nice. We managed to complete the "mission" pretty quick, in note that, we do, in comparison with the other teams, did 4blocks instead of only 2blocks. My cough was still, however, ruined my day. Thats the cause that Saturday wasn't my best. Still unwell, whatt-tt, I know. I still need to rush for tuition afterwards, when all I wanted was just a good well rest at homeee)*: Me, dad and Selena decided to find a present for Mum in accord to her 36th birthday tomorrow. Ended up buying a 95dollars healthmagnet bracelet at Eastpoint Mall. Oh-Oh, and I bought a dress, red onee. I'll upload the photo(S) laterr.

Sunday finally approach and things went a little more entertaining that day.
Brush off to Geylang(lol????? so hate thee place ehh.) and thats what mum call, celebrating one's birthday. We went for a real nice dinner afterwards, and I swear, I was the one that had my best moment. Had to be. I can't afford to had them during my birthday, it'll be puasa. And that day, I wore the best red dress, and I feel redcool.

End of "lost" updates.
Current updates now.

The first thing I came home, dump my backpack on the floor, let down my pony-s, slide open the refrigerator and stuffed 2 red strawbees that could ultimately relieved my overall thirst. (:
Gosh, the weather's demandingly freezing today, right? Mygodd. Amnesiac soon.
Then it went blazing hot, again. Oh, Singapore, permanent, forever, weather. Inevitable.
Everything went sort of perfectly fine today, but only thing is, I didn't get to see him today.
After school, tagged Sheela to KFC for a late lunch. Bought myself a 4dollars meal and chatted with Sheela about the randomest thingsss ever, till its time to goo homee(and tuition). I always love chatting with Sheela. YES, she's always THE one that makes my dayy. (:
Even when times started to fly, I'd always be hopingg we could just talked moree. HEH HEH.
Proceed to tuition and back homee.
I am practically tired,, but I WILL AS BEST AS I CAN, STAY UP TONIGHT TO DOO MY BEST REVISIONN. EOY is soo inching andd if tougher revision was still not beginning, I'm telling myself this, "FINA, YOU'RE SOO DEAD."

Okay, that'll be all today, blov-vers.
Remember, Fina Loves You. OKay, delete delete delete, if you think it should.
ByeBye.

I'm currently reading Sheela's All-American Girl novel while trying to fill in the time.
Oh, I regretted not coming to school today. The cough's not that bad after just an hour of rest. Goo, might have been doing my duty in school today. Goo, one day wasted for the week. Shhash.
Anyway, visited the doctor today.
This time, the 3rd time, I say for the term, mum drag me to VagusClinic, which needed pay fees, unlike the previous visit of clinics which is basically a cut-down discount because I'm using dad's LTA Medical Dependent card, and the clinic happens to be under his panel, so basically its no cash involvement. However, the minus side is, I don't get well fast visiting the past clinic.
I'm much more familiarize with my since-young family clinic, The Vagus.
Its been long years since I saw Dr Van. Hehe, though he's looks look a little ageing since the last time I saw him, which was 5/6 years old? Well, duh like of course la, me.
All the fee, charged mum, altogether, 60bucks. Great for just a day MC uh?
Not.

Well, honestly just the first take of the medicine, I'm already near to recovering, which is my veryy hope cause I want to be present in school tomorrow. There's:-
- English presentation
- Choir
- A much more important lessons that mustn't be missed, that includes Math&Geog&Science.
- And a more importantly the Singapore 2010 YOG countdown at Padang after school tomorrow.

So a healthy body need to resist till late night tomorrow, okay, forever, if God will.
Kayy, blov-vers, thats all for my sick day updates.
Love you all.
Sick person is goinna rest(*:

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

Too bad, its not a happy one for me.
I'm grounded, for the day, well at least the whole of today's evening.
Cussit, blame it on my freaking throat, thats yet to recover since forever last week.
And the doctor wants me to rest a day more.
Its literally an hour that've past since the time I need to meet up for the TASAD dance rehearsal.
Honestly, bl**dy throat laaa. Erghh.
Well, to all of you who will be celebrating our nation's 44th birthday, have fun and throw your joy out there, unlike me, stuck in the bed, eating medicine helpless just watching the parade via television telecast.
And to YiYun, Happy 15th Birthday.

Well, love misses all of you.
Fina.

Dear blov-vers,
for those, if, you have been visiting my post recently, you would have noticed that I have not been updating. Yes and I won't really so much, since things have been going a little out of hand for the past periods and I can't really afford to go online or blogging, too much on the "school work" stuff.
And and and, I know hardly anyone would visit this blog cause I see no tagmessages no more. Well, not that it bothers me much, anyway. Well, but please do keep me updated with the things going on on the line.
I'll probably be posting on weekends or on free weekdays, if thats even possible now.
WELL, okay. Thats it for this week's updates.
Well, will update you soon. Love all of you.
HEARTS blov-vers<3

What am I going to do now?
My fever is still running now.
38.5. How do you expect me to go school?!
Ohmy, shoot.
Somemore dad is checking on my temperature every single minute.
I'm worried that I couldn't turn up for school tomorrow.
I'm worried that my temperature still hasn't cool down by tomorrow.
I'm worried that I'd be missing lessons again.
I'm worried that doctor will give me a 7days MC.
I'M MORE THAN DEAD WORRIED!

I just took 2pills and dozed off for complete 4 hours on my bed.
My head still hurts from the long hours sleep.

Please, just let me recover.
I missed my dearest beloved friends, badly.
No one knows, that I dream and think of them every night when I'm sick):

Here's a huge marquee that reads;

FOR THOSE WHO ARE IN COLD WARS WITH YOUR FRIENDS,
PLEASE, STOP. CAUSE YOU'RE WASTING TIME.
FRIENDS ARE LIKE DIAMONDS WHERE THEY ARE SPARSE IN A DENSITY OF BROKEN GLASSES.
ITS EASY TO FIND FRIENDS WHO ARE PURELY MADE OF GLASS,
LIARS & BETRAYERS,
BUT ITS NEVER THAT PUNY SIMPLE TO FIND A TREASURE-IZE ONE IN A MILLION PRICELESS FRIEND WHO ARE MADE OF PURE DIAMOND.
LOVE YOUR FRIENDS.
ITS NEVER A REGRET.

P.S. This is a random call post. Which reads me, ILOVEMYFRIENDS. And that's forever.

Here's both good news and bad news.
Good news is:-
Shout yayness, cause my fever has ultimately simmered down, with exceptional of the coughs and little drowsiness.
But bad new(s) are:-
Lets see how many important lessons I've missed,
- 3 period of maths
- 2 periods of science
- 4 periods of history
- 2 periods of english
- 2 periods of geography.

G R E A T.
I'm so behind time. Plus plus, maths test is due 2days away. Owhhh.

Goo. I have cracked lips.
Well, thats all I have to say.
Love you, blov-vers.