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♡ fear.
Monday, August 30, 2010, 9:48 PM
I used to be afraid of so many things..that I’d never grow up, that I’d be trapped in the same place for all eternity, that my dreams would forever be shy of my reach. It’s true what they say: time plays tricks on you. One day you’re dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. Cause there are things I wanna tell her; to relax, to lighten up, that it’s all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. These people who contributed to who I am, they’re with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Cause the truth is.. it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it’s cause we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we’ll never forget. I can’t swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.
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♡ Eve of my 15th birthday.
Sunday, August 22, 2010, 4:46 PM
        Till then, enjoy the rest of your weekend <3 |
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♡ the uncertainity.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010, 11:34 PM
So what if I came clean, and told you all you mean to me? So what if I meant every word I said? So what if I write your name cause you're always on my brain. Don't be getting any big ideas, let me make it clear. Just cause I can't go on, just cause I die when you're gone and just cause I think of you in bed, don't let it go to your head, don't let it go to your head.
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, 11:16 PM
I can't sleep. I've got a long to-do list. I'm tired. I want to sleep.
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♡ an understatement.
Thursday, August 12, 2010, 9:15 PM
 My theory is if I stop talking to you, maybe you would start to miss me, but sometimes I think this is what life is all about - hanging on when your hearts had enough, and giving more when you want to give up. Today I learnt a very important lesson: I can never fully understand a person, no matter how long the period of knowing them. Can, never. |
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♡ NDP: blessing tool in disguise.
Saturday, August 7, 2010, 1:54 PM
NDP's over. The concert received a couple of positive comments. Phew, I'm glad.
Now I can finally alter my attention to other focus and aspects of my life. One of which are my studies. However though, I find this very ironical. The busier I got with the NDP going on, the better my results have been. But I shan't place my luck and risk it just like that too often, cause my SS test I've sat for previously, have been a major disaster. Perhaps, what Afiq had said, might just come true: My first test to fail. I would not bail on having that thoughts either, cause truly, I never did study much. But whattodo. It's over. Happened and the past. I'mma just waiting for my results and do a much better job the next round. It's going to be a real looooooooooooooooooong weekend but I've yet any plans to pamper myself after all the sleepless nights I've had lately. There might(or might not) be a council cum national day outing on Monday though. Love to go, but thing is, clashes with family day. MM, so perhaps, my attendance might not be permanent I guess. Ahwell, I shall find myself any other way of entertainment myself - either with my fam or my friends. Heh. And starting from Wednesday onwards, ultimate priority would be my academs and my class. EOY's coming up dear blov-vers. Cut out all your laidback/procrastinating ideas till the end of our eoy. Nothing's impossible. The word's enough to explain it all, i-m-possible<3 Alrighty, daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Enjoy your long weekend. LOVE LOVE LOVE. |
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♡ graze up a pretty smile, strangers.
Sunday, August 1, 2010, 11:58 PM
YO WHAT'S UP, my dear BLOV-VERS! (God, lately, I'm much too addicted with Eugene's normal routine greeting, haha. Missed it at times though.) Finally, I'm done with my 12-page Food and Nutrition research. 6 hours straight on that. My fingers got too numb after all those typing, sigh. Yet, I still am bombarded with NDP admins. The teachers, even our dearest Mrs Kok's expecting a boom for this year's NDP concert. Ohm, God, guide us along. I know there'll sure to be fall stumbles and mistakes along the way, but I just wish I'd pull through all of this good and back in one piece. This'll perhaps the last time I'll be this committed to organizing a programme for the school, so I want it good, maybe, best. Grant me, please. Things have been going back to where it's supposed to be. Amazingly, but yes... Everything starts to fall back together. Without even my slightest intents. I'm finding myself grazing up smiles more often than ever before. Perhaps this is the kind of road I want to live in for the next teenyears. I love my friends, I love my family. Truly I love my best friends. It'd be 12 in another 9 more minutes. I've been up since 7 am earlier this morning, doing work, work, work and work, yet nothing beats out of me. Surprisingly, I never set myself on the bed. Not once, not at all today. HAHA. A GREAAAAAAATTTT ACHIEVEMENT. YAY! Tomorrow's going to be another looooooooooooooooooonggg day for me. I hope I can still survive till tomorrow. OH YES, I CAN :D OKEYY, I'm yet to do 3/4 of my To-Do list. One of which, touching on my Sciences. HEH. Alrighty. Enough on the screen already! Say byebye weekend, hello workdays. NIGHTTTTT, MY LOVELY LOVELY LOVELY BLOV-VERS. MUAH(k). P.S. I want to be your favourite hello and your hardest goodbye. I LOVE YOU ♥ |