Because things are okay now, you don't need me. One of the sole reason why I'd step back and gave in.
I'd given attitudes - to see who'll care. I'd reply one-word answer - to see who'll care. I don't talk - to see who'll care. I don't emote - to see who'll care. I walked away - to see who'll care. As expected, no one does.

If you’re not ready, then I’ll wait; If you have something to say, then I’ll listen; If you’re all alone, then I’ll keep you company; If you start to think I’m annoying, then I’ll keep my distance; If you don’t like me back, then I’ll understand. But if this whole thing is a game to you and you won’t take this shit seriously, then I have no reason why I should even bother trying with you.

So after all, I'm just a I-want-to-borrow-you someone to you.

I’ve just had a depressing realization: I have nothing unique or special to offer to anyone, I am entirely replaceable. 

Right. So tomorrow's the last day of school week. 6 more days to EOY. Crazy to think that's just mygod, an armlength away from commiting suicide if I don't put in my extra 200% effort.
Ms Chua's probably right. We might be motivated to revise at one point of time, but then, as days goes by, we realized ourselves laying back even more than before because truth is, we got lazier(instead of the opposite) when exams are approaching. I have to agree.
This post already proves it all. Distractions... Heck yes. A lot, crazy a lot a lot, lately.
Sigh sigh sigh.

"We don’t always have a choice how we get to know one another. Sometimes, people fall into our lives cleanly—as if out of the sky, or as if there were a direct flight from Heaven to Earth—the same sudden way we lose people, who once seemed they would always be part of our lives."

Ohhkay.
Till then. Daa blov-vers.

"When you’re a little girl, you believe in fairytales. And you say you’re going to find Prince Charming and he’s going to be everything you want him to be. In fairytales, the bad guy is easy to spot. He’s always wearing a black cape. Then you grow up. You find out that Prince Charming isn’t as easy to find as you thought. The bad guy isn’t wearing a black cape. He’s really cute and he makes you laugh."

— Taylor Swift

I remember a girl who used to say this, "Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone. You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while. You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it."
Fortunately, that girl finally learn to grow up. I'm actually glad that she is.

Alrighty, Tuesday already. Guess what? Homework left untouched, I'm kinda "grounded" in a way that my parents don't allow me to go out, with all this preparation for Hari Raya thing going on, with her goingggg crazyyy with her business ventures. Sighh. So I pretty much devote my 93% of my time to the internetcumbloggingcumIM-ingcumbloghopping. The other 7% is via texting some possible contacts(yet some had a harddddddddddddddddddddd time of reply me). I can't figure out any other way to make good use of my time. This is just whyyy, holiday sucks people.

Blov-vers, your holiday were spent catching up with movies and meeting up with friends(lucky you, I say). But for the unfortunate me, I have to be running around, helping mum with her annual Hari Raya business and get tongue-lashing if things weren't going as scheduled. See people! It's not that I am some crazyy dork, staying at home studying and refuse to accept your invitation to screw some time and party. But for the godforsaken time, people keep occupying me with things to do. And letme tell ya this, suck suck suck sooo muchh I can dieeeeeeeeee.
Mama, I love you, but can you for once, let me get loose a little and let meeeeee have my own break :(

Sigh, okay, no use brooding.
The Queen's arriving home in no time, I better get going already.
Daaaa, blov-vers.
Before that enjoy Taylor's new MV :D

God. No matter how much many many many many of us just wants it to have it all much slower, my dear, THE WORLD WON'T JUST STOP SPINNING FOR YOU. No. That should be an advice to me, instead. 
Crazy how August finally said her goodbyes and now we're living in the September days, that means working month, and also the month that proves leads us to whether we'll be struggling or juggling well in October. If you knew what I meant... Mygodmygodmygod. And just in a blink, we'll be sitting for our end of year examinations. I don't know exactly what to feel. Happy cause that just meant that time's finally moving on to the end of 2010? Or, scared, cause it's EOY, we're talking here?
I'm finding myself pacing pretty well this year. A little few factors that actually doesn't quite made sense. Thing is, I've got way way way a lot of responsibilities to hold this as compared to last year. So I don't quite get how my grades are extraordinarily better than last year. AHWELL, it must be the lesser subjects.

So. Now. We're already dipping in to a new month. September. Whether or not it'll be another shit month or the opposite. Kinda have to depend of myself for that. Targets for September: (hmm?)
* prioritizing.
* time management.
* stop procrastinating.(godness, Fina, serious? This target will surely be the ultimate failure)
* happy mum.
* happy friends.
* happy me.
* happy everyone.

Give me a chance. Let me give all this a try. If all else fails, which is impossibleimpossible, THERE'S SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH MEEEEE. HAHA.
Okey dokey. I'm sure this is more than enough of the updates you'all hoped for uh.

Wait, before that. Here's a little something for ya'll.




I find it awfully awesome how a mediocre someone can do this for THE WONDERFUL TAYLOR SWIFT. Tyler Swift?  Cute huh. Haha. Taylor, I HIGHLY VOTED HIM. I mean come on, Joe Jonas? Taylor Lautner? Toby Hemingway? Cory Monteith? They superstars. I mean I know you  are. But a star is not good match to another superstar. And besides you said it yourself in "Hey Stephen" : all those other girls, well they're beautiful, but would they write a song for you. Tyler Ward's doing that for you. Taylor, all those other men, well they're heck yeah as eligible for you, but they couldn't be able to write a rendition for you. Aiyyyy, just accept him, will ya. HEHEEE. Alright, but WHATEVER it is, FOREVER TAYLOR♥

Smiless. Heh. GOODBYESSSS, MY LOVES<3<3<3
P.S. I think I'll go anti-love. I mean, butterflies in the tummy, heart skips beats. Dear. It can't be safe.

Today I came to realise one very awfully wonderful thing. That no matter how my life used to suck, how people use to give me bullshits, how deeply I've been hurt, how terrible I've felt, I was and will never going to be alone. I'm still being surrounded by a sea of wonderful creatures. My dear friends. And to me, it's more than enough of a blessing to have them in my life. Crazy, annoying, jerks, whatever. They made almost half of my life more rejuvenating.

And for now, Fina, if you don't appreciate what life's been giving you, you sure are losing a lot of things. HECK YEAHH. I totally need to take my own advice seriously. Haha.
Have a fruitful term break <3<3<3

“This is how it works. I love the people in my life, and I do for my friends whatever they need me to do for them, again and again, as many times as is necessary. For example, in your case you always forgot who you are and how much you’re loved. So what I do for you as your friend is remind you who you are and tell you how much I love you. And this isn’t any kind of burden for me, because I love who you are very much. Every time I remind you, I get to remember with you, which is my pleasure.”