Yesterday I had a stupid dream. About a stupid girl. Living in a pathetic stupid world. She, stupidly fell in love with a boy. One stupid sunny-then-raining day, she starts feeling stupidly that she shouldn't have loved this boy. For one thing, yes she shouldn't, another, she couldn't, and other, she mustn't. Then she have this stupid feeling that she ought to confess to the boy that she likes him and ought to forget him after then onwards. However, her stupid thoughts conquered her heart and emotion and she step back towards her intention. She felt really stupid and kept herself to silence about the boy from then on. And she lives stupidly ever after.

Okay, that was supposed to be a lame dream. I mean stupid dream. Fine, its not a dream. Its a story-real life story. About me. Yea, me the stupid belle who fall in love. Oh, I started to find this whole thing ridiculous to be true that I'd code it-a dream.

Get back to the day.
Godlord. I didn't perform well in choir today. I've just recovered from my bad ache(s) yesterday and today since the expectation's gone higher, I'm loosing off the ground. I don't intend to 'slack'. Its just that my mind are too vary-ed with things that's been taking place recently. How I hope that this year will past and move on.
With many things thats taking place, I doubt I could stand anymore.

*Sigh* Guess I signed off here. I don't want to take you into my deepest sorrow anymore.

P.S.// I called your name. You never turned. What does that shows? I tried my best to be less assertive. I failed. You're still inside here.
P.S.S.// I found out already. I'm sorry, I'm sure I'm not yours to be in your innocent heart. I don't want to gave disappointment to your high hopes. You're far better than anyone and that I ever expected. To all, I couldn't empty anymore space in my heart cause ultimately there's only this one buried deep inside me. I'm sorry. To all. Never think of me- again.