Mama I love you. You're one strong woman I truly salute all my life. Me and Selena watch you work day night week and months trying to swallow all the pain. You told me life won't be easier later. I told myself I'll be prepared. Mama, worry not. You'd be my first and only option. It's okay if I lose them as I don't lose you. Mama I'm sorry if I hadn't been good. But I promise you I will. But if you could only just quit standing so strong and just cry ; just let it all out. It hurt when you stared me back with the helpless eyes. 
Her face clear of tears. I watched her discreetly fighting back all the words.
My words were limited. I've always prepared for this day to take place, always had been. But I didn't know when today finally came, my heart just crash. Tonight couldn't get any worser than this.
This will change from today onwards. Yes, I have been further notified before.
But thing is, I didn't the truth really could hurt this much.